Winter Doldrums

Has it really been that long since my last post?

I hate winter! Hate it, loathe it, despise it. There is nothing going on in my community this time of year. There are very, very few opportunities to get out and practice all the new skills I picked up over the summer or to maintain my social confidence. I got into a real depressive slump when I realized I was feeling some of that confidence slipping away. I’m feeling better now, but spend many hours pacing like a caged animal, wanting to be anything but alone and isolated.

I tried going to a “warming center” with my DLS worker. It’s really just a place for people to gather once  a week during the winter. The experience didn’t go so well. I had problems hearing what anyone said to me with all the other voices in the room. I need to get my hearing checked and see why I’m having so much trouble with that. The people seemed nice but pushed me too hard about taking part in games, etc. I just wanted to hang out and talk to people. They said that was fine but kept pushing the games. I doubt I will go back. I just wasn’t ready for that kind of pressure, especially since I don’t know how to play any of the games and wouldn’t be able to clearly hear any instruction I was given.

I’m very, very, very slowly learning my way around facebook (sort of, maybe). That thing is so confusing! If I could just get a handle on how to use it, I think I would enjoy it.

Here I am yesterday, installing a new piece of equipment at a remote radio repeater site.