Well, almost. I am chronically tired, maybe in part because I am tapering off caffeine (again). But aside from that annoyance, I feel absolutely great!
I am continuing to manage incoming and outgoing phone calls with ease. I like talking to friends on the phone. Business calls, while not fun, remain quite manageable. After more than 40 years not being able to deal with phone calls, even in the best times, this is quite remarkable. In about a week I’m getting a long distance plan so I can call friends out of state without spending an arm and a leg. Woo-hoo! Yee-haa! I’m looking forward to chatting with friends on the phone more. What?! Was that me saying that?
I am continuing to routinely shop at several stores, continuing to explore using a debit card at more places, and even when things don’t go quite right it doesn’t send me into a panic. Today was a good example of that. I tried to use an ATM but it refused to read my card. I got really nervous about it because there were people standing nearby, but it didn’t end my day with a panic attack and giving up. I went to plan B. I would just use the card for my shopping today. When I tried to pay at the first store, the machine said incorrect PIN! What? I was sure I entered it right. Anyway I asked the clerk to process it as a credit transaction instead, which worked fine. Not to be slowed down, I went to another store and again tried using the card as debit. This time it worked fine. I came home feeling a sense of satisfaction at having beaten adversity. That is just so completely opposite what my life has always been!
I still have financial stress, but I just keep telling myself I will find a way out and that seems to be working now. While it is often on my mind, I’m not constantly stressing over it.
For the first time in my life I am feeling there might be jobs out there I could manage, if things keep going this well. Not every job, but some, maybe.
I seriously want to find more public speaking engagements of some sort! But where? Boy, if only I could make a living doing that! How awesome would that be?
People have suggested several times I should write a book about anxiety. I laughed! But you know, if things keep going this well and I keep getting better, maybe I do have a story to tell? I’m not sure anyone would buy it, but I just might try writing that book. Freaky.
I remain excited about life and look forward to continued expansion of my horizons. Whoa… this is really radical stuff! 🙂