I am trying to get motivated this morning. Yesterday I had a burst of energy and managed to make some headway cleaning my house and organizing. I wish I could stay in and do more of the same today, as I’m still in the proper frame of mind for it. But I must go out and do errands today. There are several to be done, but unless I can somehow manage the backpack I will only be able to do one per trip. I may be able to do two trips today, if I get moving soon. But two will not cover everything. It would take four or five trips without the pack (20 to 25 miles!), one or two trips with it.
I am upset with myself. Jessica had to cancel Monday. She called to let me know and see what I had on my agenda for the day, expressing concern about having to cancel and “force” me to do more walking. Two weeks ago I let it slip that I was not adapting to the new lifestyle as well as I had hoped. I wish I hadn’t done that.
The first of the several appointments related to getting dentures has been scheduled for next Monday. Weather permitting of course. The plan is to leave early and have a chance to shop for a few things that I cannot get here in this small town. That will be a long and stressful day.
I must get moving! Time is slipping away.
Hi Paul,
I hope you don’t mind me saying but I am glad you let that comment slip when talking to Jessica. It’s good that she knows about these things, so she can help you more efficiently. From what you write about her, she’s a good, caring lady. So I’m sure that’s what she wants to do. If I were in her place, i would prefer knowing what’s going on, too, so that I could always do my best to help, instead of being kept out of the loop, and maybe something bad happening to somebody in my charge.
And though I know that this kind of reasoning usually can’t help how one is feeling about something…I have to go on a little bit more…:)
It’s just that even from a purely “generic” human standpoint, you totally deserve to be cared about by those around you, just like you care about them. And this includes deserving to have people worrying about you! It is totally ok. Though I understand that you may feel bad, again I’m happy that Jessica knows about your difficulties.
I’m having difficulties of my own today, it’s been tough to write clearly, hope this turned out ok.
Best wishes,
Nadia
Hi Nadia,
I always look forward to your comments.
I understand what you are saying. I guess it is a matter of pride with me. I chose this walking lifestyle in order to focus on other priorities. It bothers me when I “complain” about consequences of the choices I make.
But some good has come of it. As a consequence of my recent “slip” I have found renewed commitment to make this work.
Best wishes,
Paul