I keep repeating that phrase to myself tonight. Why, if it is just a hobby, do I feel like my heart has been ripped out? Tonight is the second leg of that special operating event for pre-1930 radio equipment, the first leg having been a week ago. Here I sit, missing it. I know if I participate I will be even more stressed out in the weeks and/or months ahead, with an even bigger backlog of QSL cards to answer. I know my decision is the right one, but tonight it does not feel good. I spent nearly a year looking forward to this. This picture sums up how I feel tonight.
Hi Paul,
I really get what you’re going through tonight. There was so much in my life I missed, or had to give up, or sometimes – the less bad ones, maybe, but still tough – postpone due to my anxiety/depression issues.
It’s painful.:(
Although things got a bit better, it still happens.:((
Rationalizing does not help that much on those occasions for me. Like you said, you KNOW you did the right thing, but it still does not feel good right now. I think it’s because we know we did the right thing for us, but we still wish we had had another option – like being a freaking “normal” person, one of those lucky types who does not have our issues!!:)
Well on those occasions what helps me is to get distracted with something else, try not to think about what’s bothering me. Maybe you can try and work on your hobby? Or, how about showing Boo this cute picture up there and seeing what HE thinks about you placing dogs on your blog??? Maybe he will gently request in cat language (“CLAWS!!”)an entry dedicated only to him, to make up for this terrible offense, and then you can work on that? :))
Hang in there, it will get better!
Best wishes,
Nadia
PS I will comment on your other entry tomorrow as now I am packing for my trip on Monday.
Hi Nadia,
Yes, that’s it! I want to be a freaking “normal” person! Having all these limitations really gets old and irritating, you know? I try not to think about all the things of substance I’ve missed in life. I’m left now with little more than my hobby and even that is often not entirely within my grasp. Well, time for my new motto: Onward and wherever-ward!
I showed Boo the puppy picture. He just turned around and showed me his, umm, hind end. Do you suppose he was trying to say something? LOL! 🙂 I should post one of Boo’s mug shots on here.
I hope you have a safe and anjoyable visit with your family!
Very best wishes,
Paul
Hi Paul,
Yes, Boo was definitely trying to say something! What a subtle, smart cat he is… LOL!!:))
I like your new motto!:) In spite of the challenges, we keep going…no giving up! It’s how I feel, too. Also trying to look at the positive. There are people with even worse problems than us after all. Yes I know there are others with much less too he he he…but, let’s not focus on that too much, I say.
Paul thanks for the well wishes for my travel! I wanted to let you know that although I will have limited web access and may be unable to comment, I *will* be checking your blog, ok!
It’s helpful to me and well, I can’t miss Boo’s pictures, can I!:)
Very best wishes,
Nadia
Bugsy,
1. QSLs are, as you now know I’m sure, an options.
2. Make a contact then scram and stay away ’till you’ve calmed down enuf for another contact.
3. Party/Kundall contacts go: RST 334 Op Bugsy QTH Maine TX 29 TNT Pwr 10 73 de Not what you’d call a monologue!
As well:
I love yard work. I have raking leaves dwn to an art-form. Wish we lived closer. I wrk cheap…
Nancy and I have pretty well missed Christmas due to colds. I still feel punk and spend most of the day snoozing. Talk abt sad puppy…
Hw abt an OT rig two-way QSO tonight Wed. 28th at 9 PM on 3635 +- ? RST wud be enuf to make it worthwhile here. Btr than spending tonite just blowing my nose.
Wt sa? Lou
VE3AWA
Thanks for the QSO tonight Lou! You were sounding great as usual!
I like the short and usually predictable exchange of the party QSOs.
The QSL thing was 95% of the reason I didn’t operate. When I asked about it a few days prior to the party, 3 out of 3 replies indicated they’d like QSLs. As long as I still have a backlog, I’ll be cautious about making it bigger.
I like most yard work. Summer before last I cleared half an acre of dense forest, cut and hauled away all the wood, chipped all the branches and small stuff on site. Loved it and plan to do more next summer. There’s just something about raking, though…
Paul
QSLs are a time honored tradition and expected courtesy. Even though I may wish that tradition had never been started (it consistently detracts from my enjoyment of the hobby), I respect it and have tried to honor it. When I get behind I simply cease operating for a while. At the end of the day I need to be able to face myself in the mirror.
Paul