Well, at least I have something different to be anxious about this week. The current weather forecast for Wednesday calls for a snow/rain mix, high temperature in the low 30s and windy. That should make for a perfectly miserable, and possibly very dangerous, 30 mile round trip up and over steep hills on a bicycle.
I have no choice. I have to keep this appointment. I was concerned about bad weather when I made the appointment. Late November is not ideal but it was the earliest date I could get.
I have spent the last three months trying to ask for help with transportation or at least mention this appointment to someone to see if they offered help. I have been completely unable to do so. Anxiety will not allow me to bring it up.
When I made the appointment, via a web site, I was told I could cancel or change it the same way if necessary. This morning I got an appointment reminder email, which again said if I needed to cancel or change the appointment it could be done via the web site. I was going to risk rescheduling to see if I could get better weather next time, but there is no longer any link for scheduling. So much for that idea. Calling, of course, is just as out of the question as asking for help with transportation.
If it is just cold, wet, and miserable, no problem. I can manage. But if the roads are icy or covered with snow, I have serious doubts about being able to make it on a bicycle. I know I am not able to walk 30 miles at this stage of my life, so that isn’t an option.
I cannot imagine what it is like to worry about something like getting to an appointment with all of those obstacles. I feel for ya buddy. Jules