I can sum up how I feel in two words: utterly exhausted.
During spells of good weather (make that non-rainy weather, as I see nothing good about heat and humidity) I have been pushing myself to work 12 to as much as 18 hours a day on my home. Despite that effort, I am at least a month behind where I hoped to be at this time.
Cost over-runs have been everywhere. Unexpected problems with the walls. Having to buy a new door when the old one didn’t survive being moved very well. I can finish the structural rebuild, new doors and windows. But unless I am able to borrow money (unlikely since I am not working and have no established credit rating) I cannot finish the siding this year. Regardless, the interior will be very rough, likely for a few years. Basically it will be bare studs on the exterior walls. I will rebuild the interior ASAP, but it looks like that will be 3 to 4 years from now. The only way to get it right is to completely gut it, removing all interior walls; insulate the attic, put down an additional layer of subfloor; rebuild interior walls, ceilings; wallboard and paint, put down flooring.
The strain shows up in my ability to function in the community from time to time. I’m still doing far better than before my metamorphosis but there are days I struggle with the simple things: making phone calls, going out, and so on. Anxiety has always been worse when I am tired.