Ever feel like you just can’t win? Overall I’m doing OK but feeling extremely tired, no doubt at least in part due to depression.
Today I had my second session with my new therapist… only to find out she is leaving in a month. I should start looking for another one, but my case manager is leaving in three weeks, which may leave me with no way to get to therapy for a while. They apparently haven’t found a replacement case manager yet.
Things haven’t been going well with my radio repeater (which you may recall is something I maintain for others to use – I rarely if ever use it myself). The repair that I made either didn’t hold up or something else is causing the problem. I’m having trouble figuring it out. I’ve spent so much time on it the hobby has become a job and I’m suffering from burnout. It isn’t just this latest glitch. I’ve been fighting a noise problem at that site for 12 years and have just about exhausted every possible remedy. The noise means the system will never reach its full potential and will probably continue to do worse and worse over time. That makes it hard to stay motivated and enjoy the work. My finances are too tight right now to throw any more money at the problem, so I’ve just walked away to take a break from it.
The weather is starting to warm up and I would like to soon be back out hunting power line noise. I’m half way between the old tracking tools (sniffers!) and the new, better ones (super-sniffers!), with no money to continue the upgrade. That is depressing.
I really need something in my life to get excited about, but don’t have any idea where to find it right now.