Monthly Archives: August 2011

Today I am terrified. There is no other word for it. I’m shaking. I can’t eat. It is extremely difficult to focus. Breathing takes effort. A few hours ago I got word that transportation arrangements have been made for an … Continue reading →

I’m reminded of a familiar line from a song: “Sometimes you’re the windshield, sometimes you’re the bug.” I’m feeling like the bug this week! The dental exam Tuesday went very well but ended poorly. Evidently my daily living support services … Continue reading →

Tomorrow I have an appointment for a dental exam and referral to an oral surgeon. This is a continuation of a process that started more than a year ago. To say I’m not amused with the way it has taken … Continue reading →

I did go to that event (known as a hamfest) Saturday. I really enjoyed getting to meet two people I have known for close to 25 years on the radio and internet but had never met previously. It was also … Continue reading →

Lately I’ve been thinking about how much time I spend alone. I  calculated the percentages. It was a very simple problem. The only people I see are my case manager, daily living support services worker, therapist, occasionally some other professional, … Continue reading →

I awoke very early this morning with overwhelming anxiety. I was shaking, sweating, had a gnawing feeling in my stomach, a tightness in my chest, thoughts racing but very chaotic and disjointed. I had a feeling of impending doom but … Continue reading →

Welcome to my new personal blog. Here I will be writing about my experiences in life and what it is like living with debilitating anxiety and panic. I’m 47 and have been living with this since childhood. I have tried … Continue reading →